Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
today was the first day of the easter conference at church. the speaker, MA Joy was really interesting. and animated. hahah. he'd act out a lot of stuff so that we wouldn't get bored easily. Not that we're bored of what he's saying. The thing with most speakers/messages is that the message is really interesting, but sometimes your mind just wanders off after having listened for like 10 minutes straight, so yeah you need something to pull back your attention to the speaker, that is before you suddenly realise that you've been distracted. Because I usually miss quite some stuff before I finally realise that I've been distracted, then I continue listening and try to pick up from where my mind wandered off. hahah. Well, MA Joy answered quite a number of questions that have probably hung around in my head before but then I just forgot about it. So this was good.
also, I don't like crowds much. And the thing at these Easter Conferences every year is that after the message, during refreshments, everybody is like EVERYWHERE. srsly it's really disorientating for me. I got all blurred. It was even more disorientating suddenly seeing so many people from bible camp which I wasn't expecting, or maybe I just wasn't ready for. So yes I mostly being a wall flower, or when unfortunately there was no suitable wall to hang at, I'd be stuck awkwardly between two conversing people. Hah. I saw Michelle and she seemed a little out of place too, idk. And so after all that blur-ness, of course I was affected, and so I became what I'd describe as lifeless. Like I CAN'T THINK. I can't make conversation. [thing is that I was perfectly fine before the whole after message thing, I mean I could even hold a conversation -a short one, consisting of maybe 1 or two lines, but still- with that certain someone.] I don't know where to go and stand. And everything is so awkward and busy and everyone's moving and I don't know what I'm supposed to do or where I'm supposed to go because...
on second thought, maybe there is. Maybe I was supposed to go find my bible camp friends and say Hi to them instead of just trying to catch their eye to smile at them, but failing to do so I instead walked past them.
I'm terribly sorry I was such an unfriendly zombie tonight.
and I have to say, thank you God, for giving me good friends who still want to be with me when I'm all lifeless and boring.
I don't get why my friends want to be my friends. I honestly don't deserve them. I can be so boring, have absolutely nothing to say, react to things and situations in a really weird manner, and sometimes I really don't act like a friend, and yadayadayada.
that said, y'know how I wait for someone to say Hi to me before I say Hi to them.... or when people put their arm around me but I don't, in turn, put my arm around them. I hope they don't think I don't like them or anything... I truly appreciate the love, it's just not in my nature to put my arm around anybody but my little brother, or another explanation- I don't know how to express my love for my friends and family back. I just thank God for them in my head, not realising that the one who just gave me the hug CAN'T READ MY MIND for goodness sake. I'm in a world of my own, honestly. So they show me some love, but they leave without the assurance of my love back. [sorry bout all this love business, heh, i'm not sure i'm using the appropriate words here, but it doesn't really matter since nobody's gonna read this, except for Jon the nosy parker. :P jkjkjk]
anyway. i was actually planning to blog today about David Archuleta. But I think I'll save it for tomorrow. I felt so relieved of all my David-Archuleta-loooveee when I saw Zara in church. hahah. And it also helped that I got to gush with my dear friends in school.
[why the colours and italians? heh I'm just trying to make my post look nicer. heheh. otherwise it'd just be a block of words. which it still is, of course, just that now, it's a COLOURFUL block of words. :) ]
ps: i'm trying out Verdana. ;)
also, I don't like crowds much. And the thing at these Easter Conferences every year is that after the message, during refreshments, everybody is like EVERYWHERE. srsly it's really disorientating for me. I got all blurred. It was even more disorientating suddenly seeing so many people from bible camp which I wasn't expecting, or maybe I just wasn't ready for. So yes I mostly being a wall flower, or when unfortunately there was no suitable wall to hang at, I'd be stuck awkwardly between two conversing people. Hah. I saw Michelle and she seemed a little out of place too, idk. And so after all that blur-ness, of course I was affected, and so I became what I'd describe as lifeless. Like I CAN'T THINK. I can't make conversation. [thing is that I was perfectly fine before the whole after message thing, I mean I could even hold a conversation -a short one, consisting of maybe 1 or two lines, but still- with that certain someone.] I don't know where to go and stand. And everything is so awkward and busy and everyone's moving and I don't know what I'm supposed to do or where I'm supposed to go because...
there IS no where I'm supposed to go and
there IS nothing I'm supposed to do.
there IS nothing I'm supposed to do.
on second thought, maybe there is. Maybe I was supposed to go find my bible camp friends and say Hi to them instead of just trying to catch their eye to smile at them, but failing to do so I instead walked past them.
I'm terribly sorry I was such an unfriendly zombie tonight.
and I have to say, thank you God, for giving me good friends who still want to be with me when I'm all lifeless and boring.
I don't get why my friends want to be my friends. I honestly don't deserve them. I can be so boring, have absolutely nothing to say, react to things and situations in a really weird manner, and sometimes I really don't act like a friend, and yadayadayada.
that said, y'know how I wait for someone to say Hi to me before I say Hi to them.... or when people put their arm around me but I don't, in turn, put my arm around them. I hope they don't think I don't like them or anything... I truly appreciate the love, it's just not in my nature to put my arm around anybody but my little brother, or another explanation- I don't know how to express my love for my friends and family back. I just thank God for them in my head, not realising that the one who just gave me the hug CAN'T READ MY MIND for goodness sake. I'm in a world of my own, honestly. So they show me some love, but they leave without the assurance of my love back. [sorry bout all this love business, heh, i'm not sure i'm using the appropriate words here, but it doesn't really matter since nobody's gonna read this, except for Jon the nosy parker. :P jkjkjk]
anyway. i was actually planning to blog today about David Archuleta. But I think I'll save it for tomorrow. I felt so relieved of all my David-Archuleta-loooveee when I saw Zara in church. hahah. And it also helped that I got to gush with my dear friends in school.
[why the colours and italians? heh I'm just trying to make my post look nicer. heheh. otherwise it'd just be a block of words. which it still is, of course, just that now, it's a COLOURFUL block of words. :) ]
ps: i'm trying out Verdana. ;)
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
can't shake this feeeeeeling
I FEEL LIKE JUMPING UP AND DOWN [i did do so just now, and i ran up and down the stairs, but i still feel like jumping heheh].
my friend just won two tickets to david archuleta's concert here which is 5 hours away from where I live.
my parents are like 'why are you so excited? YOU didn't win the tickets'
I have no idea why. hahahah. I'm so influenced by the things around me, and what is happening in other peoples lives. If someone is sad, I get sad, if something good happened to someone, I get happy. it's weird. haha.
[i totally just copy and pasted that from my post on the boards. i was too lazy to type it out again.
my friend just won two tickets to david archuleta's concert here which is 5 hours away from where I live.
my parents are like 'why are you so excited? YOU didn't win the tickets'
I have no idea why. hahahah. I'm so influenced by the things around me, and what is happening in other peoples lives. If someone is sad, I get sad, if something good happened to someone, I get happy. it's weird. haha.
[i totally just copy and pasted that from my post on the boards. i was too lazy to type it out again.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Kris Allen= love
Kris Allen is da bomb. :D
he's got that same 'archuleta effect' on me. hahah. he's so NICE. insanely creative with his performances and arrangement. he's got that energy and style in his performances that i love oh so much.
and I got my fullstop key back. :D
i have to get used to not doing the whole 'control + v' thing now.
he's got that same 'archuleta effect' on me. hahah. he's so NICE. insanely creative with his performances and arrangement. he's got that energy and style in his performances that i love oh so much.
and I got my fullstop key back. :D
i have to get used to not doing the whole 'control + v' thing now.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
edit: bigger things than trials
trials in 4 months time!
tis true.
:/
Today, I read through mah new camera's manual [almost halfway through] then spent like half an hour taking pictures of Dad's new LED product. And then just now, for like an HOUR I took like a billion shots of the same thing. and gahhh I was so frustrated because no matter how still I held the camera and how many times I played around with the settings, all I get it BLUR pictures.
whoahwhoahwhoah.
my mom just knocked on my door and told me that my old classmate in primary school, that her mom just found out she had lung cancer and just had an operation to remove one lung where the cancer had spread today [or was it yesterday, bah]
my insides feel all sad now.
[this friend lives just 5 doors from me, btw, but i haven't talked to her in ages]
I hope she's okay. I'll be praying for them.
tis true.
:/
Today, I read through mah new camera's manual [almost halfway through] then spent like half an hour taking pictures of Dad's new LED product. And then just now, for like an HOUR I took like a billion shots of the same thing. and gahhh I was so frustrated because no matter how still I held the camera and how many times I played around with the settings, all I get it BLUR pictures.
whoahwhoahwhoah.
my mom just knocked on my door and told me that my old classmate in primary school, that her mom just found out she had lung cancer and just had an operation to remove one lung where the cancer had spread today [or was it yesterday, bah]
my insides feel all sad now.
[this friend lives just 5 doors from me, btw, but i haven't talked to her in ages]
I hope she's okay. I'll be praying for them.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
online games
My little brother made his first online game
awhhhhhhhh
lol
i was the first tester
but of course it wasn't my cup o tea
but it was okay, like the game was impressive, considering he did it just by following some article he found online on how to do it
awhhhhhhhh
lol
i was the first tester
but of course it wasn't my cup o tea
but it was okay, like the game was impressive, considering he did it just by following some article he found online on how to do it
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Earth Hour.... bleah
I am not supporting Earth Hour. YET I'm being subjected to using the computer in the dark. I'm getting eye strain. ahhhhh.
Also, my American Idol only got recorded half way. D: BUT I got to see Danny and Adam. both were great. Adam was AMAZING. still bummed I didn't get to see the rest though. oh well.
also, David A. is coming to KL. Hah. I mayyyyy be a little excited. Even though there is no way I could possibly go watch him. Twould be nice to meet him though, he seems really nice and humble, but the screaming fangirls around him would be a pain.
Also, my American Idol only got recorded half way. D: BUT I got to see Danny and Adam. both were great. Adam was AMAZING. still bummed I didn't get to see the rest though. oh well.
also, David A. is coming to KL. Hah. I mayyyyy be a little excited. Even though there is no way I could possibly go watch him. Twould be nice to meet him though, he seems really nice and humble, but the screaming fangirls around him would be a pain.
YAYYY CALEB GOT INTO LA SALLE
am listening to Kris Allen singin How Sweet It Is
[btw my period key is spoiled, again]
It's only a recording, not a video, because I can't find any on youtube
why am I looking for it on youtube? because 8tv TOTALLY WENT OFF PROGRAM and started american idol like 15 minutes ahead of schedule
so I missed the first two performances
the second which was Kris's
and the first, i hope it wasn't Danny or Adam
anywayy
Kris Allen=win
haha
am loving the song
i tell you it's gonna be stuck in my head all day tomorrow, and when I'm at Pinang Peranakan Mansion to do my kajian sejarah, and when I'm at the Canon Warehouse Sale at Anson Road, and when I get back, yes I believe the song will be stuck in my head
goos night peoples who are few or none
[btw my period key is spoiled, again]
It's only a recording, not a video, because I can't find any on youtube
why am I looking for it on youtube? because 8tv TOTALLY WENT OFF PROGRAM and started american idol like 15 minutes ahead of schedule
so I missed the first two performances
the second which was Kris's
and the first, i hope it wasn't Danny or Adam
anywayy
Kris Allen=win
haha
am loving the song
i tell you it's gonna be stuck in my head all day tomorrow, and when I'm at Pinang Peranakan Mansion to do my kajian sejarah, and when I'm at the Canon Warehouse Sale at Anson Road, and when I get back, yes I believe the song will be stuck in my head
goos night peoples who are few or none
Monday, March 23, 2009
ah. I have a Siviks presentation on Wind Power tomorrow. And the hopefully Pn. J won't scrutinize every move and sentence we make.
The Sun heats up areas of the atmosphere unevenly
These warm patches rise up
and other air blows in to replace them
this is WINDDDDDD. ohhh yeah.
*sneaks a look at notes again*
ah yes.
we build a large tower with propellers at the top to generate electricity from the wind.
The wind blows the propellers round which *sneaks again*
turns a generator which produces electricity.
there.
The Sun heats up areas of the atmosphere unevenly
These warm patches rise up
and other air blows in to replace them
this is WINDDDDDD. ohhh yeah.
*sneaks a look at notes again*
ah yes.
we build a large tower with propellers at the top to generate electricity from the wind.
The wind blows the propellers round which *sneaks again*
turns a generator which produces electricity.
there.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
oh. so last night I fell asleep during a sleepover. which is probably the LAMEST thing anyone could do during a sleepover. so yeah I missed all the talking. heh. and guess what was the last thing I did before falling asleep? I was reading my sister's physics book. heh. So yesterday I learned about basic quantities, vector quantities, scaylar [?] quantities and all that. hah. but I'm still not very clear on what is velocity. Zara and May Lyn gave me varying meanings.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
it works! ...............................
somehow, I don't know how, but somehow, cow, brown cow, tell me how
but my period key is working again. YESSS.
enjoy this bout of dots.
................
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.......
....
..
.
:D
aaaaand. I just realised that I have very little time finish up all my holiday homework that are all due on MONDAYYY.
because this is my sort of, kind of, almost hectic and full weekend I have planned
tomorrow morning: Spice garden. Picture taking. Suh-weeet.
tomorrow afternoon: Piano, Violin. moooooooooooooosic.
tomorrow night: BM tuition. till 10 AT NIGHT.
tomorrow midnight: will be watching cheesy old romance movies during sleepover with zara and zian.
saturday morning and after: MOOOOVIES. and possibly some cycling.
right before YP: JUUUUNO with Nat and maybe Tab.
afternoon: YP
Night: I THINK I have Science and Math tuition. I'll have to check.
Sunday: Church
which leaves me part of Sunday afternoon and night to finish up all my work.
Ohhhh boy.
but my period key is working again. YESSS.
enjoy this bout of dots.
................
...........
.......
....
..
.
:D
aaaaand. I just realised that I have very little time finish up all my holiday homework that are all due on MONDAYYY.
because this is my sort of, kind of, almost hectic and full weekend I have planned
tomorrow morning: Spice garden. Picture taking. Suh-weeet.
tomorrow afternoon: Piano, Violin. moooooooooooooosic.
tomorrow night: BM tuition. till 10 AT NIGHT.
tomorrow midnight: will be watching cheesy old romance movies during sleepover with zara and zian.
saturday morning and after: MOOOOVIES. and possibly some cycling.
right before YP: JUUUUNO with Nat and maybe Tab.
afternoon: YP
Night: I THINK I have Science and Math tuition. I'll have to check.
Sunday: Church
which leaves me part of Sunday afternoon and night to finish up all my work.
Ohhhh boy.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
clock! look! oooooOOH
I put a clock right there to remind me to get off the computer when I've been on for too long
yay clock
yay clock
happily ever after
yadayada only happens in movies and tv shows like Ned's Declassified
I think I just watched the LAST episode of Ned's
i'm going to miss you Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide
I think I just watched the LAST episode of Ned's
i'm going to miss you Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide
you and I bothhh
Yeahh You and I Both by Jason Mraz is stuck in my head
also the period key on this keyboard is spoiled
so there shall be no dots
in this blog post
ohhhhh ROT!
i think i see a ghost
ah yes, a pathetic attempt at rhyming
i am pathetic
-at song writing
-at being noticed
-at not screwing up
-at having fun
-at finishing homework on time
-at talking
-at approaching
-at making something last [no not last, first, LAST, i mean LAST LAST forever ish kind of LAST]
-at explaining something
-at saying what I'm trying to say
Hence hopefully by undead-ing my blog [once again] that I will improve in my um, English and um, be able to write down and say what I think using proper words and sentences [missing dot]
Hopefully no one reads this blog post
Yep sometimes I wish I had never given anyone my blog url
so that I can my secret online diary
sometimes when I'm typing a blog post I seem to be typing it to myself and so I type my blog post as if no one is going to read the content of my post
which is stoooopid I know
I'm pretty much doing the same thing now
but I think it'd be a waste of typing if I don't publish this post
but anyway it's not like anyone wants to READ my ramblings
right?
gah I wish I could write something people would actually read and understand
Oh and FB is being annoying
I can't seem to figure out how to see all the photos index and the notes index
and for some reason I have this incredible urge to actually do that whole '25 Random Things' that's been wayyyyyy overdue
because I think I was tagged like a month ago
by like 10 people
hmmm
maybe I should do it now
here
yep
here we go
25 Random Things
1- I stink at making lists
2- I am an introverted extrovert [ I can really shy and I can't be really outspoken too, totally depending on my mood, surroundings, people I'm with, y'know]
3- I kick myself [not literally, I'd kick myself in my head if I just did something I regret]
4- I am awkward [try holding a conversation with me, you'll see]
5- I canNOT dance
6- I iz clutz
7- ---- oh great, i'm stuck already
ummm
7- I wish I had a good guy friend ['why a guy?' you may ask, i don't know either]
8- I am incredibly indecisive [but WAIT, recently I've found a way to curb my indecisiveness problems, that is to just HENTAM-yayy- It's effective, but brings to wrong choices]
9- I miss my hamsters :(
10- I wish I had a dog
11- which reminds me, I miss Bubbles :(
12- I also miss some people who I shall not name here
I'm gonna stop here
because I'm stuck
whooo
and I am not going to post that facebook
oh yeah and I've really been getting into Unfabulous and Ned's Declassified again
and Nick's showing em everyday now
though a new episode is rare
i wish ned and moze would be together alreadyyyy
also the period key on this keyboard is spoiled
so there shall be no dots
in this blog post
ohhhhh ROT!
i think i see a ghost
ah yes, a pathetic attempt at rhyming
i am pathetic
-at song writing
-at being noticed
-at not screwing up
-at having fun
-at finishing homework on time
-at talking
-at approaching
-at making something last [no not last, first, LAST, i mean LAST LAST forever ish kind of LAST]
-at explaining something
-at saying what I'm trying to say
Hence hopefully by undead-ing my blog [once again] that I will improve in my um, English and um, be able to write down and say what I think using proper words and sentences [missing dot]
Hopefully no one reads this blog post
Yep sometimes I wish I had never given anyone my blog url
so that I can my secret online diary
sometimes when I'm typing a blog post I seem to be typing it to myself and so I type my blog post as if no one is going to read the content of my post
which is stoooopid I know
I'm pretty much doing the same thing now
but I think it'd be a waste of typing if I don't publish this post
but anyway it's not like anyone wants to READ my ramblings
right?
gah I wish I could write something people would actually read and understand
Oh and FB is being annoying
I can't seem to figure out how to see all the photos index and the notes index
and for some reason I have this incredible urge to actually do that whole '25 Random Things' that's been wayyyyyy overdue
because I think I was tagged like a month ago
by like 10 people
hmmm
maybe I should do it now
here
yep
here we go
25 Random Things
1- I stink at making lists
2- I am an introverted extrovert [ I can really shy and I can't be really outspoken too, totally depending on my mood, surroundings, people I'm with, y'know]
3- I kick myself [not literally, I'd kick myself in my head if I just did something I regret]
4- I am awkward [try holding a conversation with me, you'll see]
5- I canNOT dance
6- I iz clutz
7- ---- oh great, i'm stuck already
ummm
7- I wish I had a good guy friend ['why a guy?' you may ask, i don't know either]
8- I am incredibly indecisive [but WAIT, recently I've found a way to curb my indecisiveness problems, that is to just HENTAM-yayy- It's effective, but brings to wrong choices]
9- I miss my hamsters :(
10- I wish I had a dog
11- which reminds me, I miss Bubbles :(
12- I also miss some people who I shall not name here
I'm gonna stop here
because I'm stuck
whooo
and I am not going to post that facebook
oh yeah and I've really been getting into Unfabulous and Ned's Declassified again
and Nick's showing em everyday now
though a new episode is rare
i wish ned and moze would be together alreadyyyy
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
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